Well, SHOOT (yes, edited version)

When I saved the pic for my last post, I named it "Mad Face". This one I named "Madder Face."

And, I confess that "SHOOT" was not the first word that came to my mind. I told you in my last post that I am a beautiful mess.

Well, my CT scan this morning showed spots on my liver. While the optimist in me says it could be anything, the realist that I truly am knows the cancer has spread.

SO, while I still will pray that it is contained, I will switch my focus to asking God to give me strength through whatever treatments will follow. I know chemo for sure. Just not sure about radiation. My oncologist is Dr. Brad Baltz, so I will be in excellent hands. And all of this is in God's hands.

I still am determined to go to Brazil in July. I know that is becoming more of a dream, but I must maintain hope. I've got to have hope in something. I feel such a strong calling to go, so I have to believe that God will make a way. I can't give up on that. Not right now.

My surgery is Thursday, May 4, at 11:00 am CDT. I am on a liquid diet until then, but not clear liquids only until Tuesday.

I so very much appreciate all the texts I get. Please keep them coming. I doubt I will be able to keep up with and respond to all of them, so please don't take it personally. I will try to keep posting in this blog. If you want to continue with me on this journey, may I suggest you sign up for notifications when I post here? I think you just need to put your email below in the subscribe form and submit. Even if no one reads another word of this blog, I will continue to post because this is how I process. I write. In fact, a friend from Tallahassee just emailed me something I wrote when I was 25-years-old about spiritual warfare. Yes, my 25-year-old self was talking directly to my 56-year-old self. Thank you, Stacey!

Please continue to pray for Jadyn. I just don't know how he's making it like he is, but I am so very proud of him. I know I can count on him; I just wish I didn't have to.

Thank you all for your encouragement and support. God's got this!